A Heavy Heart

As the countdown begins for my daughter to be hospitialized for 3 weeks, I have a very heavy heart. We prayed and labored many hours over this decision. It is not one I want to have to make again. Monique is a beautiful child with a good heart that has gotten clouded over with mental health issues. I ache for her. I am not ready to be away from her for 3 weeks. I know this is what she needs to break the cycle that she is in here at home. A mother's mind is always worrying about her children. Will she cry for us? Will she be willing to work hard to get home? How will her little brother take all this? The guilt that I feel on my shoulders is great although I am fighting it knowing that it is a lie. Will our family get back to living together as a loving family? Only God knows for sure. I know that all of us our suffering with the turmoil that we have been living in. I just put my son into therapy to help him deal with many issues including being hurt on a daily basis. This is a journey not a sprint. We did not create this problem in a few days and it sure won't be fixed in a few days. God knows my heart. I know he wants freedom for us. As I am doing my bible study on Breaking free, I am reminded of how much He wants us to be free from our bondage. It starts with us and our hearts. As you think of our family remember us in prayer. We need a lot of strength to walk this road of rebuilding and hope. I just love the idea that my Savior is a few steps ahead of me breaking the path for me and keeping me safe. He knows our every need and will supply. We are truly blessed to have what we have and the services we need. He will have all the Glory when this family is healed.